My Blessings

I am reminded today of how wonderful my boys are, both of them, each in their own way!

Carter can walk

He is getting so much stronger and wanting to walk on his own, but he is my little perfectionist and will only do it once, then after he falls he is reluctant to go at it again. He cruises well and walks with his walker, but on his own he is hesitant because he doesn't want to fall. If he isn't paying attention and going after Caden or Jack he will take a few steps on his own before he realizes it!

Another Song

This is how God chose to speak to me this morning, I hope it blesses you as well.

"Cry Out To Jesus" - Third Day
To everyone who's lost someone they love
Long before it was their time
You feel like the days you had were not enoughwhen you said goodbye

And to all of the people with burdens and pains
Keeping you back from your life
You believe that there's nothing and there is no one
Who can make it right

There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus

For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They lost all of their faith in love
They've done all they can to make it right again
Still it's not enough

For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
You try to give up but you come back again
Just remember that you're not alone in your shame
And your suffering
When your lonely
And it feels like the whole world is falling on you
You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus

There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus,

Cry to Jesus
To the widow who suffers from being alone
Wiping the tears from her eyes
For the children around the world without a home
Say a prayer tonight

Trick or Treat

Smell my feet, give me something good to eat...oops sorry, flashback to when I was a kid :)

Last night was fun for the most part! We costumed up and went to the Kenny's (our neighbor's) and then to Cee and Emily's. Finally we ended up at church. Caden had fun in the hay maze and the inflatable slide. The carnival inside was fun too, but both boys were so tired by the time we got there that it didn't last long.

Caden was so worn out by the time we got home and in bed he was trying to tell Pops about it and could only say yes to one question then handed me the phone and fell asleep, instantly! Carter was exhausted but still smiled at everyone of course! All in all...fun times!

Sorry for the pic overload, but I can't pick just one!

Caden got his hair painted to look just like Diego (thanks to Emily for the suggestion!)

My Little Lion and Diego the animal rescuer!Here are the boys and the Arnett girl's (Emmy-Kate, Avery, and Haley)
Cee dressed up as "Grandma"
Caden bowling at the carnival.

Striper Fishing at Lake Texhoma

Cory went with my dad on the annual trip this year. I think they had a good time...it took them longer than usual to catch their limit, but dad says... A wise man once said "A bad day fishing is better than a good day at work" and boy was he wise.

Here is the crew...Cory acting like he can fish :)
Ryan caught one!

Stand Up!

Carter loves to stand around now...he is taking some steps, but he has to do it right or he gets mad and sits down!

I Know You're There

This song really spoke to me this weekend on the road...maybe it will speak to you to. It is on Casting Crowns new album...here are some of the lyrics.

I Know You're There

If all I had was one last breath
I'd spend it just to sing Your praise
Just to say Your name
If all I had was one last prayer
I'd pray it 'cause I know You're always listening

If I could live a thousand lives, bind the hands of time
I would spend every moment by Your side

'cause I, I know You're there, I know You see me
You're the air I breathe
You are the ground beneath me
I know You're there, I know You hear me
I can find You anywhere

If all I had was one more song to sing
I would raise my voice to make the heavens ring
If all I had was one last chance, I'd take it
I would stake it all on You

If I could rise up high and catch a glimpse of every eye
I would make them believe what I feel inside

'cause I, I know You're there, I know You see me
You're the air I breathe
You are the ground beneath me
I know You're there, I know You hear me
I can find You anywhere

Whirlwind weekend got me thinking...

I am so tired right now that I should be in bed, but here I sit...checking mail, paying bills, cutting coupons, etc. I have picked up the house and I am ready for tomorrow but I am really? I have been pretty tired lately and bummed out. All in all overwhelmed with my life and not knowing what to do about it. So maybe writing my thoughts will help?

I love being at home with the boys, but sometimes I don't feel as if I really "do" anything. I don't have accomplishments, or even goals for that matter. I know my purpose in life is to glorify God I just don't know how that looks sometimes while raising my boys. I feel that all I do doesn't really matter and it wouldn't be missed if I were gone. Now don't go feeling sorry for me, I am just thinking here! God is trying to show me something, but I really am not listening! I have so much other stuff going on that I forget to focus on Him daily and this other stuff wouldn't matter.

Cory and I talked about this a lot last week when I had my major meltdowns, but I really started thinking more while driving to and from Guymon and Duncan both this weekend. I think I need to say no more because serving and ministering to others is great and that is what God wants, but am I doing it because that is what He called me to do. I need to start listening to him more! Didn't I just type that?

I am reading scripture and a few other things that are helping me get this focus back, but it is hard when you are the mother of two children 3 and under! I pray God understands and shows me a little of his grace and mercy for yet another day! I am thankful for it and know I need it!